Dream Journal 2013, 2014, 2016, 2017

August 12 2013 a man somehow hurt himself in my bedroom and reported me to my school. a bunch of police searched my room for drugs with dogs while I hid. vic was dead and we were at at party and I was taken home while refusing to talk. there was a guy in my backyard as well as a mini mart and he bought me a large package of swedish fish and we played sims castaway on the PSP.

September 6 2013 Removed.

September 10 2013 Removed.

Sept 15 2013 my brother was an ocean sunfish. he could play any song by the beatles on the piano by heart.

October 2 2013 Removed.

Oct 13 2013 my grandfather knew he was going to pass away so we all spent the day with him. he could walk with ease and have perfect conversation. my dad was there. I told him it was poppy’s last day and he was happy.

Nov 21 2013 I was dating 50 cent.

December 16 2013 Removed.

Dec 25 2013 kelly got her toes run over by some crazy woman in the alleyway.

January 2 2014 I tried to make a smoothie in the cafeteria with soybeans and strawberries.

January 10 2014 Removed.

January 12 2014 Removed.

Jan 25 2014 there was a lot of soda on the boardwalk, josiah gave me free clothing and then he coerced me into have sex with him in the ocean. I found $100 in my wallet which felt lucky. the electricity in my mom’s house went out so I went to my dad’s but they had planned this surprise carnival for me and seth rogen. there were many stray cats outside which was weird. val and I had this device which was like a wormhole leading to my mother’s house and we took it back there along with a lot of clothes we packed.

January 30 2014 Removed.

February 13 2014 Removed.

February 23 2014 Removed.

February 25 2014 Removed.

March 7 2014 dr. house diagnosed me with some eye problem and put me into a jail cell.

March 14 2014 matt gave me an mp3 download of his new single “it started on the basement floor.”

April 7 2014 Removed.

April 14 2014 Removed.

April 22 2014 Removed.

April 23 2014 Removed.

Dream Log Lost

May 24 2016 Removed.

May 27 2016 I was sitting on the stoop with kelly and saw helen; she came and sat with us. a lot of people were out there, when mary from next door came out and looked very sad. I told her I missed her ankles because I could see them and she sat down in her entryway to cry. there were beanie babies I the road I wanted to move but didn’t.

June 1 2016 Removed.

June 4 2016 meg hugged me and hung onto me for a while. I felt guilty and wanted to push her off but also felt like I shouldn’t. both our partners were there and I thought the situation was uncomfortable. there were a lot of dead/broken animals In the road , ferrets birds etc.

June 28 2016 you killed yourself in the next room, my body shook.

July 19 2016 I was in a fancy hotel, staying there, dan and I were in some class where the assignment was to make some kind of art piece in one hour. I made a flip book about a girl who felt she wasn’t good enough, with centered faces and words on each page. when it was over we found out we had to present them at a woman’s wake. dan went first and played a song he wrote and everyone loved it. when I went and read my work out loud it was too short and not poetic enough and no one clapped.

later this woman was egging me on to throw her over a balcony or at least I thought. at first I was calm but then I started telling her that her necklace was ugly. I decided to steal her earrings and necklace and after she told me they were her aunts (the woman’s who wake we were at). she was mad at me because she thought my art sucked. my friends told me to return the jewelry. after a while I found a table where people were placing symbolic items and I put them there for her aunt. later I was with dan and he has to take a train back so we parted and talked about the july 5th weekend and how we got together he said let’s talk about it soon I have some questions. the rest of the dream I was in syd’s room. she had 3 bedrooms. she told me that if you hear people at night moving in your house it could be ghosts of bugs in the walls and ceiling.

October 3 2016 dan and I are sleeping at the hockanum house. a woman comes in that I know and am attracted to and tells us she can help us lucid dream if she lays with us. we take some powder and go back to sleep. there’s a cat with spikes and blue fur on his head and tail. he is affectionate but I’m scared he will eventually tire of me. we go into separate dreams within the ones we planned. kelly tells us to hurry up at this public forum at a diner about racism. she says we need to wear yoga pants and a shirt that is tight. she said she doesn’t want us looking like lesbians at the baseball game. I win 20$ out of an arcade machine. we wake up, dan thinks the powder has worked and smacked something across the room. I don’t think it has. the girl is gone.

August 4 2016 Removed.

August 8 2016 Removed.

August 16 2016 Removed.

August 18 2016 I brought my parakeet to school and was worried it was too loud/hot etc. I was very nervous about his fragile life. I was cupping him in my hands. I realized I didn’t pack food for him for overnight and that he hadn’t had water In a while. I started searching the school gift store for food. the woman told me the man with parakeets who is a magician just left but that he told her not to give his number out. I walked into this auditorium but there were a lot of kids and birds and it was loud in there. kids were chasing me and grabbing at the poor bird. finally I realized all the cars to go to the houses had probably left. I found a car and ran up to it and it was going to the hospital. I found the last car that hadn’t left yet and I thought this is perfect. but there was no room and I was stuck at the school.

November 16 2016 i was in a toy shop with an open ceiling. the sky was like still moving stars. there was a lot of movement but it was a purple gray color with a lot of bright light. in the room were large nintendo plush characters in the next room was a long skinny isle of fish and birds. up front near the door there was a fish tank that had no water but had a toucan, a guinea pig and one other bird in it. i felt very sorry for them. I told the owner they could not all be in there and not all in a glass tank. i took them out and eventually took them home. at home i had them in a cardboard box and could not figure out where to put them all because i had no cages. I took one parakeet out of the cage in my house with only one in it, with a brown bushy tail. i tried to put the toucan in but it ran outside and flew away. i was scared and upset, i knew it would die out there. but it came back, flew it through val’s window and was safe. my room was very dark with brown walls. i organized plants but couldn’t understand what light they needed. i felt out of sync with these creatures in my home but was glad that they were in my hands and knew i could learn how to help them.

November 18 2016 arlo threw a copy of big mamas house on DVD out he window.

December 5 2016 meg wanted me to give her a mullet at 4 in the morning.

January 6 2017 I was cleaning out the shelf over my childhood bunk bed but 10 years had passed and I found old muffins, perfume, and dominique’s house keys.

January 7 2017 Removed.

January 17 2017 Removed.

January 18 2017 I witnessed a murder in a house of many people mostly children i don’t know. I left my computer in a closet at a park came back to find out the park was destroyed, found out who the killer was because i saw on a webcam but people didn’t believe me. when the cops showed up they were the kids and they were also half animal.

January 22 2017 Removed.

February 8 2017 I bought a squirrel/chipmunk hybrid and loved it and kept it in my room at my moms where the little crawl space was and we would play together everyday. a few days in i noticed he was in a cocoon and i didn’t know what was going to happen. I put the cocoon in a box to transport to my mothers. when i opened it he became a huge iridescence purple and black bug that looked like it could fly and i was really nervous and confused why the pet store didn’t tell me this would happen. i felt really guilty because i didn’t love it the same way i did when it was conventionally cute but then i accidentally smashed it with the lid and felt even worse about the whole thing.

April 17 2017 we kissed in a toy shop. i knew my friends would be mad if they saw. we held hands for a long time. it felt natural and fun. eventually we went to an indoor zoo it was inside a house. we wanted to move the giraffe upstairs but once it grew up it would never be able to get back down and so i was disappointed but i understood. a crowd saw my underwear while i did backspins for you in a circular room.

May 5 2017 I saw a small fly wearing a crown.

May 26 2017 Removed.

June 23 2017 Removed.

June 24 2017 Removed.

July 11 2017 Removed.

July 19 2017 all these people I was acquaintances with, high school teachers and employees and family were in a room where we all got to break down the walls and boundaries and tell each other we loved them. The first person was an older man from a school I went to who looked me in the eyes and told me he loved me and he loved me because I was alive and so was he and that was it. I was walking around seeing who I’d want to tell and I saw a woman sitting alone. Some people were being told they were loved more than others. I told this woman and hugged her and started to cry. I went upstairs where Rodger and dan were. vic was sitting curled up in a chair and I cuddled with him touching his face which still had sun-marks and aging. I think he was sick but looked peaceful. I told someone that I was fed-up with rich people because they just don’t understand what it’s like in front of someone rich and I could tell they felt uncomfortable.

August 8 2017 Removed.

August 14 2017 walter had a bee in his mouth and my mom told me to take it out so I grabbed him by the scruff and carried him outside till he let it go. I noticed something in the road. It was ruby sitting in a baby carrier with another cat standing next to her. I was confused where this came from. there were VHS tapes. soon I realized I was at my mom’s yard sale that she had kept up overnight. It was dark and there was dew and I saw all of the things she tried to sell that were mine like doll houses and my n64.

August 19 2017 I went to the bakery with a friend and was cutting up film strips to get it finally digitized. some of the process was cutting up pasta and then twisting it and putting it though a machine.

August 30 2017 I met aziz ansari and we walked around all day I told him I thought he had an original stand up style he shared with me he is gluten free.

October 14 2017 ruby had three plastic forks positioned in her hair for anyone who wanted to brush her. I took them out and combed her with them and she became very happy and energetic.

October 26 2017 Removed.

October 30 2017 Removed .

November 18 2017 Removed.